You
Kamari Simpson
Egan, Minnesota - Marketing
I close my eyes and the image of you again floods my
thoughts-clouding the reality of my current situation and engulfing me
into a world that I literally and physically can only dream of
How is it that something so true and so pure can be so far from the
truth?
You are my escape
Yes, I use you
You give me the ability to survive and more importantly, to last
I bring myself into your world so that I might endure another day
I don’t think you know what you do or what you mean, nor do I
All I know is that you are the comfort and solace that I seek
I create you out of broken characteristics and components that I have
encountered in individuals throughout the years
Thus, you are perfect, and you are mine
Perhaps it would be better to clarify you, or our relationship as a
state, or as an instance, because we both know you are not forever
I am no longer confronted with my daily trials and misfortunes when I
slip into this state
I have no worries, no fears and no expectations
Slowly, surely, easily you come and exclude the outside world from our
time together
And I let the moments float by
Enjoying and cherishing each one as if it were the last; all the while
thinking that at any second this bliss will end
Is it wrong to be so caught up in a dream, a phase or moment that it
hinders your ability to operate and achieve in the present?
I know so; I am all too familiar with that
So again, I slip out of the mesmerizing daze and return again to normal
affairs, the tedious, dramatic, ironic life that is my own
So again, I wait-hoping to return again to the position of which I can
let go and be free
I know that it is not right-to deny the life I live while in search of
something more beautiful, more picturesque, more
“what I want it to be,”
that seems only attainable through imagination
And I also know that it is silly to think something so far away could
bring so much clarity and pleasure that is ever so absent from my life
Yet, it is my something and my clarity and thus it is not for everyone
to understand, or accept,
It is merely my gift that I use to make it
So again, I get myself together and try to function, to perform and
then, to do it all over again.
